shutting down

I have no poker face. I wear my emotions on my sleeve for the world to see. There is no need for me to tell you what I’m thinking because you can easily read my thoughts by looking at my facial expressions.

When I am feeling blue (read: stressed, overwhelmed, sad or mad) I tend to shut down. I prefer solitude and moody music. And sweating – zoning out in a work out does wonders for me.

This blog is meant to be a happy, positive and entertaining avenue to stay in touch with family and friends. Hard to achieve the desired content, currently, as I am finding myself in shut down mode. Losing my Uncle Bob is heart breaking and gut wrenching at the same time. Grief occupies the mind and leaves little room for other thoughts, making it difficult to write. IMG_3743

Tonight I mowed the lawn with our reel mower in 90 degree heat. You can really work some grief out pushing one of those through tall overgrown grass. I was drenched in sweat and looked like I wet myself. And holy moly I don’t think I’ll be able to lift my arms to comb my hair tomorrow morning.

I’ll be back in a bit. Just need some time. In the meanwhile, give your family members and your friends a hug. And maybe read the Linda post for a smile.

2 thoughts on “shutting down

  1. My heart goes out to you and all the Jones’…and everyone who knew him. He was special and sometimes life is tricky. I will keep reading LInda as we all need those smiles on a daily basis. 🙂

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